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Those Bright Hours

Every now and then over the past two days I’ve pressed the pause button and sat down outside to savor the still-blooming patio flowers and the slowly changing colors of the yarden. But in between pauses and work I’ve focused on a fun and labor intensive project: Jelly.

Not just any jelly… not just rosehip jelly, either, though it did require a bowlful of those. These wild rosehips are small and seedy, not much flesh or juice, so I knew it would take a lot of them. And they’re not easy to harvest; even the rosehips themselves have pickers on them, so I took kitchen snippers out to clip them off by ones and twos, invariably snipping plenty of leaves. I picked out the leaves as I dumped the fruits into a bowl of cold water with a splash of vinegar.

Then onto the crabapples! My gorgeous tree produces the tiniest crabapples I’ve ever seen. The rosehips are small, but the crabapples are no bigger than the rosehips! I plucked them from the tree by ones and twos and threes, reaching overhead for most of them and dropping plenty on the ground. It took awhile, but I refilled the bowl, picked out the leaves, and dumped the crabapples into another bowl of cold water and vinegar wash.

It took an hour to rinse the rosehips and pick off blossom ends and residual stems, but at least the prickers had softened during the soak. I put them in a pot, covered them with water, and simmered for well over an hour, mashing them some about halfway through to release even more rosy essence, adding water a couple times to keep them submerged.

When they were sufficiently softened I scooped the mash into the ancestral chinois cone strainer that my sister from another mister gave me a few years ago, which had belonged to her mother. I let it drip for about five hours, squeezing out more pulp a few times with the elegant wooden pestle that you swirl around the edge simply using the palm of your hand on the smooth handle.

Once I’d extracted all the goodness I could from the rosehips, I put the crabapples on to boil, again keeping them just covered with water, and mashing halfway through cooking. They were just as hard to prepare because I had to pull off each stem using small pliers. I cooked them for only around 45 minutes, as I’d read that if you overcook them you ruin the pectin.

This mash strained for a couple hours before bedtime, with a couple of pressings, and then I left that in the strainer overnight, covered with a mesh tent to keep out the one or two pesky houseflies remaining inside.

In the morning I pulled the rosehip juice from the fridge, swirled the two bowls full together, and dumped them into a larger saucepan with an equal volume of sugar.

I brought this to a rolling boil, then reduced the heat and simmered until the jelly had reduced to the proper thickness. Or maybe just a bit longer. I used the “wrinkle test” to determine when to stop cooking: put a couple of small plates in the freezer, and when you think it’s close, pull one out and drop a spoonful of jelly onto the cold plate, let it sit for two minutes, then draw your finger through it. If it wrinkles on top it’s ready; if not, cook a bit longer. Pretty sure I could have called it good after the first test despite not getting the wrinkle but I let it cook another five minutes until the next test wrinkled.

I knew I wouldn’t get much jelly out of all this effort, but volume wasn’t the point. Some kind of crazy satisfaction from the process was the point, and a few mouthfuls of powerful flavor. I optimistically sterilized six 4-ounce jars, and was delighted to fill five of them. While they processed in the hot water bath for twenty minutes, I scraped the saucepan clean and slathered a piece of buttered toast.

I slowly savored every single tart, sweet, slightly flowery mouthful.

Twenty-four hours and uncounted steps later, the labor intensive fun resulted in five tiny jelly jars full. How I wish I had enough to give some to everyone I want to share it with! Oh well. That’s why they say “Mashed potatoes are so everyone can have enough.”

There are still tons of even smaller rosehips on the bush… will I decide to spend another day harvesting and processing another batch? Maybe… but most of the crabapples left are out of reach so it would be purely rosehip jelly if I do it again. Who knows how the wind blows? Who knows where the time goes?

Meanwhile, as I labored away, the lazy little animals just sat around enjoying the gorgeous fall days. Ok, well, I did sit with them some of the time, grateful for the time to sit, and grateful for those bright hours making such extravagant jelly.

Interconnected

Little Bambino drinking from the bird bath
BLT under construction, with added basil
Using more gifted basil with leftover squash in a layered pickled salad with garden red onion and Prosecco vinegar
Rain-drenched moss glowing under juniper on evening walk
Quick pasta dinner with leftover gnocchi dough and tomatoes leftover from the BLT reduced in sage butter with a dollop of bacon fat
This morning’s joy while filling the small-bird feeder
Midafternoon walk to the sunlit canyon, playing with Hipstamatic app
A tote bag full of geraniums broken up and potted to give away at No Kings Day rally on Saturday. I’ll be keeping just one, of course

A Quiet Day at Home

I’ve found another way to use the last few drops of maple syrup that always linger in the bottle after you think it’s empty: it floats on the latté foam! A sweet treat, a small triumph.

I’m grateful for a quiet day at home with pretty clean air inside and out, for accomplishing some household projects inside and out, for tender connections with nature throughout the day.

We took a nice long ramble through the woods this evening, and found somewhere new. It’s a small thrill to find myself somewhere new in my old familiar forest.

This morning at the pond another something new, another small thrill: The first frog’s forelegs!

And this evening, something else new, a little meeting of the minds on the side of the pond. Look at these vastly different organisms all getting along despite belonging to three different phyla: the snail, Mollusca; the tadpole, Chordata; and the dragonfly nymph, Arthropoda. How is it we humans can’t get along better? We’re all the same, five levels down the animal classification tier from Phylum to the smallest division. As members of the same species, we have a lot more in common with each other than we have different.

I’m grateful for all that is good in my life, and all the gifts of this precious day that will never come again.

Wetland Creatures

The wetland that grew around the pond over the past decade is buzzing with life. Gaillardia is blooming, drawing native bees and butterflies, like this field crescent (Phyciodes) sharing a feast with a striped sweat bee (Agapostemon).

The developing tadpoles are fascinating. They’re gaining shape and color, splashing around at the surface, and when I zoomed in on this picture they look translucent. And they seem to be sipping air – look at that little tadpole mouth!

I wish Wren had shown more caution creeping up on the garter snake; it’s perfectly harmless, but her curiosity could be dangerous with some other species.

And I wish I could end tonight’s post right there, with the simple joy of wetland creatures on a hot summer day. As I sat there this morning I remembered the phrase “all’s right with the world” with sadness. It wasn’t this morning, and it most assuredly is not this night. The madness out there just keeps escalating, accelerating. But down at the pond, absorbed in the pace of nature, there is respite for minutes at a time.

This Awful Eve

On this awful eve, Courage and Resilience are the values I’ve set to embody this week, and for this coming era. I rise above the claws of dread that try to drag me down, and open to the full range of possibilities that each moment of uncertainty offers. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow, or the next day. I’m not optimistic, but I have been practicing courage and calm, and it’s my intention to continue that, one uncertain moment after another.

Some of us will spend tomorrow morning celebrating a great and kind leader instead of gawking at a circus of lies. If you’d like an alternative to the inauguration, join Robert Hubbell on Substack for a livestream of readings from important leaders of democracy, including Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. I heard this poignant quote of his this morning at a Upaya gathering:

“Power without love is reckless and abusive; and love without power is sentimental and anemic. Power at its best is love, implementing the demands of justice; and justice at its best is power correcting everything that stands against love.”

On the same zoom, part of a series called ‘Awareness in Action,’ Jon Kabat-Zion spoke about the polycrisis exploding on the planet, and asked, “How do we cause the minimum harm and maximum benefit?” Would that everyone would live by this guidance.

The bittersweet foam at the bottom of the mug: I am grateful for this coffee, this milk, this cinnamon, on this precious day that will never come again. While coffee is still available for now, the chocolate market is unstable. This alert appeared last month when I tried to order Mt. Mansfield dark chocolate maple bark: “Due to volatility in the chocolate market attributed to wide-scale cocoa crop failures, we have temporarily halted production of this item.”

With that in mind, I’ve continued to explore ways to disengage from the billionaires’ conglomerates that have insinuated themselves into my life. I’m participating in the Meta boycott, which is easy and if enough people do it will send a powerful message to Zuckerberg: simply log out of Facebook, Instagram, and any other Meta platforms today, and don’t log back in for a week. Multiple sources online assured me before I did it last night that nothing gets lost, and whenever you log back in you pick up where you left off. Imagine the impact on advertisers, and thereby on Zuckerberg’s bottom dollar, if several million people ignore these sites for a week. R. Hubbell considers the nuances of such an action and invites us to use these platforms intentionally if we’re going to use them.

I spent an hour this afternoon disengaging from Amazon, by canceling most of my Subscribe and Save items. Next to the Amazon tab I opened Thrive Market, Chewy, and Grove Collaborative, all more ethical choices for necessities in light of the Bezos capitulation to the oligarchy. I searched for the same or comparable household, grocery, health, and pet supplies on the relevant sites, and saved them on these platforms as I culled them from Amazon. Every little bite out of the profits of the billionaires who will sit on that stage tomorrow makes a difference. A million minnows can devour a shark.

As always, even more so, I’m grateful for the simple pleasure of a cheese sandwich. This version from three days ago includes mayo, lettuce, homemade B&B pickles, and a dreamy, creamy, horseradish cheddar with a kick that was a birthday gift.

My mother chose to quit living a week after the 2004 election of W. She could have lived a little while longer, but she was so disappointed that she didn’t want to. (Her speech therapy in the months prior to that election included repeatedly articulating “Bush stinks,” among more colorful phrases.) I thought of this when President Jimmy Carter died last month: maybe he didn’t want to see the new president take office. Carter tried to address the polycrisis even before it had a name, as all the separate threads of it began to congeal. It’s horrifying for many of us who watched (or took) great strides on behalf of the planet, civil rights, women’s rights, basic human rights, to contemplate the giant leap backwards that tomorrow portends. We’re going to need all the courage and resilience each of us can find. I’m profoundly grateful now more than ever for having found the practice of mindfulness and the internal skills it cultivates.

Today’s cheese sandwich included tuna salad, romaine, and a thin layer of horseradish cheddar on the latest perfect sourdough loaf. With mayo, of course. A few cheese puffs, and the romaine ends for little Wren’s last bite. She lies patiently behind me in the chair as I savor my simple fare, and when it’s her turn she sits on the rug and catches the crunchy lettuce bits I toss to her. My heart breaks for all those suffering in the world who cannot enjoy such simple pleasures for whatever reasons. I do not take the good fortune of my current circumstances for granted, for I know that all we have is the present moment. Tomorrow (always) everything could change.

Potatoes

POTATOES!

Potatoes seemed to take forever to emerge, but I’m thrilled to be watching as first the soil bulges, then cracks, and then the first few leaves push through. These are the red potatoes, farther along in sprouting when planted and first to emerge, and now the yellow potatoes have started pushing up dirt, with just the tips of leaves from one showing.

Where’s Wren?

I’m grateful for more rain this afternoon, and can only attribute the blurry photos to that. I’m grateful for the sense of accomplishment that came from a morning teaching and an afternoon working in the garden. I’m grateful that Good Tim has recovered remarkably from his heart attack, and was able to come work for a couple of hours; which motivated me to work hard on the bed around the cherry tree. I removed the “temporary” foot-tall wire that tripped me last month from around the circle, and pounded proper edging into the ground, then replaced the decorative rocks. Then I weeded it, and planted some leftover tulip bulbs from last fall, which I hope will bloom next spring. I picked up an ‘electric blue’ penstemon at the nursery yesterday, which I planted in this bed to complement the yellow columbines that volunteered here years ago. A gardener always lives for the future, even while enjoying the present moment. We also learn from the past.

Practice Makes Perfect

Look, Ma! No Cheese! I’ve been approaching Dairy Overload this past week, so was grateful to have a bunch of goodies to make a delicious salad for lunch, even without cheese. And the dressing was mostly walnut oil and vinegar, I just made it in an ’empty’ mayonnaise jar to use up the last tablespoon I couldn’t scrape out.

I made apple cider cinnamon rolls again, this time determined to do everything exactly according to the recipe. I started the dough Sunday night, left it in the mudroom overnight, and was delighted to see it so beautifully risen in the morning. I remembered to bring it inside as soon as I got up, and set the bowl across from the fire to help it come to room temperature more quickly. It rolled easier this time, and I brushed the melted butter on the dough as prescribed instead of mixing it with the filling.

It made a perfect log that turned out just about the diameter of the rolling pin. I sliced that in half, then quarters, and each quarter into thirds…
…making twelve nearly perfectly even rings.
These rose for an hour until doubled, more or less

And this time they baked perfectly all the way through. Then I made the glaze exactly according to directions, cooking one-half cup apple cider with a pinch of salt down to exactly a quarter cup, and mixing in cream cheese and butter. It turned out perfectly. And once the rolls had cooled for five minutes, I spread a very thin layer of glaze over, and let them cool an additional twenty minutes before spreading the rest of the glaze. I’m not sure why this extra step, but I’m not going to argue with it: I can imagine some magical alchemy of the thin layer melting into the hot rolls and creating a protective film or something.

The looked absolutely perfect. I could hardly wait for them to cool enough to try one. And when I did, it tasted like something was missing. It was delicious, but there was just a little something something not quite right… a few hours later it hit me: I forgot the nutmeg! The filling mix, mostly brown sugar, also calls for cinnamon, ground ginger, nutmeg, and a pinch of ground cloves. I had lined up the spices from the baking drawer, but forgot to set out the nutmeg grinder from the countertop turntable. I’ve never been a huge nutmeg fan, but I can see that even a quarter teaspoon can add that extra little pop in a cinnamon roll. Oh well! Practice makes perfect.

Simple Joys

I follow an entomologist on Instagram who posted yesterday about micro-moths, tiny beautiful creatures. When I let Wren out for midnight whiz last night and checked the high-low thermometer I spotted a micro-moth and took a picture. Nothing fancy, but tiny, and precious in its own lepidopteran way.

Where’s Wren? Hiding in the corner of the patio when the storm rolls in tonight. This morning, she spotted a young garter snake in this same location, and trembled with excitement as she sniffed and patted at it under the basket. It wasn’t her usual wasp/bee/grasshopper behavior, so I went over to check it out. I was grateful to see my first snake of the YEAR, and glad that she was so gentle in her curiosity.
First ever broccoli forest loaf (first of many) ready to go into the oven.

This morning a friend brought to mind the simple joys of an ordinary day, mentioning “pretty flowers blooming, colors that are harmonious together, birds singing.” It turned my day around. I had been lying in bed late, curled up tight like a pill bug, not wanting to get out of bed, not because I was overtly depressed, just that I didn’t want to get out of bed. Following Debi’s checkin, others mentioned a range of things that give them joy, from animal companions to functional limbs, and the brief virtual discussion stayed with me all day.

I’m grateful for the simple joys of being alive in any given moment. Today those included reading a novel, my work, a couple of meaningful conversations with family and friends, exercising, stretching, meditating, groceries, a light rain shower, Biko walking through the door and tucking himself inside as the storm approached, Buddha School, watching ‘Modern Family,’ and baking this amazing broccoli forest loaf. So simple, so delicious! And for once, my result resembles the online photo!

Wordle

Wordle is just grand. I’m grateful for this simple and sometimes mind-bending word game that swept the nation a couple of years ago. Its history is easy to look up, but in short it was invented by a guy for his partner, got popular, got bought by NYT and made him rich. I’m happy for him. I’m grateful for the two friends whom I share results with each day, and the tiny but meaningful connection this fosters with laughter and wordplay and appreciation for each other’s minds. I’m grateful for this addictive and sometimes quite challenging brain game. It sparks delight when I see or hear friends that I didn’t know enjoy this private pleasure post or talk about their results or their streaks. Who could have predicted such a simple thing would bring joy to so many people?

The Pedal

I’m grateful that the new pedal for the sewing machine works! It’s not perfect: it doesn’t want to stay plugged into the back of the machine. But I braced it to stay put, and got some projects finished yesterday. The fifth and last panel for the sunroom curtains (which I started twenty years ago) is together, the one on the left with the eyelash viper appliqué. Only one curtain is actually assembled and hanging, and now I have four left to finish decorating and sew onto the Warm Window lining. Originally I planned these to insulate the five sunroom windows from winter cold, but as our winters became increasingly mild (along with some major distractions) I kept putting it off. Now I’m motivated to finish them, and another shade for the landing window, to insulate the house from summer sun and increasingly uncomfortable heatwaves. I’m very grateful that I’m fortunate enough to have an adobe house whose temperature remains relatively stable season to season, year to year; knowing full well there are millions of people who don’t have this kind of protection as our climate becomes increasingly unstable.

The first thing I sewed with the new pedal was the gown-curtains. They’re not fancy or fussy, with some rips and raw edges here and there, but they’ll do the trick of mitigating hot sun in the east and west windows in summer, and tempering the cold in winter. And finally making something out of that gown? A priceless feeling of accomplishment.
Here I am in the gown in college, on the way to a costume party with my page, Brian. It was only fair that he was my servant this year, since I was his slave the year before that…

I’m grateful to have these old photos to prompt memories of fun times and special people. But I’m thinking about digitizing just a few special images and throwing all the rest–all the loose photos in boxes, all the albums from childhood, from generations of ancestors before me, from the Colonel’s Army days, from my mother’s last year–just throwing them all away. They take up so much space. And after I’m gone, who will want them? Do I even want them? There’s a certain discomfort in looking at them now, especially those that cover my life. I’m no longer that person. I no longer know Brian, or almost anyone else from my past. I found in looking through the album that contained these two pictures, in looking at these two pictures, that much more than happy memories comes up: memories of embarrassing moments, emotional wounds, longings unsatisfied, choices made, chances missed, a melancholy retrospective. I don’t want to look backward at what and how my life was. I don’t want to think about that girl or her angst. For every fun or happy moment, there were hours of anxiety and dissatisfaction. I didn’t know who I was or what really mattered to me. And none of that past matters now, when there is so little future left.

I want to look forward, not backward. Who am I today? Who do I want to be tomorrow, if I get there? I’ve found contentment in the simple life I lead, close to the land and the wild, growing food, listening to birds, watching clouds; cherishing each day on this beautiful planet even as I witness its unraveling. Finding gratitude and joy in the smallest things:

Baking Aunt Clara’s biscuit recipe, and eating one warm out of the oven with the first taste of apricot jam…
Serving an amuse bouche of blue cheese-stuffed portobellos for Boyz Lunch…
…trying a new recipe with eggplants from the garden, stuffed with a peanut-spice mixture and then steamed in a pot of same…
… serving the Boyz eggplant, stuffed squash blossoms, and a bowl of garden zucchini and orach with créme fraîche and parmesan, along with biscuits, and chocolate chip cookies… enjoying their enjoyment of the food and our time together, and deriving deep satisfaction from serving a meal grown mostly in my garden.
And, of course, I’m grateful for and find meaning in giving a good life to this dear, comical little creature.